Imagine my surprise when I arrived home (exhausted) from a full day of training yesterday and just broke out in tears. I was a complete wreck. Even worse, I didn’t know what had brought on this sudden, and very emotional outburst. I hadn’t put much thought to my covert narcissist. Nothing new was going on…
What Does Evil Look Like?
Slater – Never got to say goodbye to this wonderful dog. RIP, my best friend.
“It’s Just Numbers”
Thus were the words spoken to me by my attorney after our first family court hearing. The purpose of that hearing was to address the order of protection that was filed against me. At that same hearing, my covert narcissist spouse was also told that I would be serving her with a divorce. To be…
Who Needs You
John Deacon wrote Who Needs You as part of Queen’s “News of the World” world album. The band never formally released the basis for the song, but most agree that John is writing about his relationship with his wife. As a covert narcissist survivor, this song rings true and brings forth the push-pull relationship of…
I Should Have Been An Abortion…
It was a day, just like any other day. I was a senior in high school and just arrived home from school. As it was forbidden to enter and exit our house via the front door, I made my way around to the back of the house and came in through the sliding glass door….
Gives You Hell
The hit by the “All American Rejects” revolves around two alter egos of lead singer and bassist Tyson Ritter – one as a traditional family man and the other as a lay-about garage band singer – as neighbors infuriating and pulling pranks on each other due to their different lifestyles and behaviors, while scenes of the…
Narcissistic Collapse
Although narcissists are all about obtaining and maintaining supply, they are often dealing with issues of low self-esteem and shame. This is especially true with covert narcissists, which is why they seek out long term supply as compared to their overt narcissist peers. It is also why covert narcissists are fanatical about having absolute control…
Running On Empty
Jackson Browne wrote “Running on Empty” while driving to the recording studio for his album The Pretender, inspired by his habit of not filling up his gas tank because the studio was so close, leading to a “running on empty” lifestyle metaphor. As part of my recovery from a narcissistic relationship, I invested time visiting waterfalls…
Checkmate in Three… What is next?
Predictable…that is the one word that comes to mind when I reflect back on my ordeal with my covert narcissist. Although I did not know when she would erupt in narcissistic rage, it was still predictable. As much as narcissists are rumored to be a force to reckon with in court, my experience has been…
Don’t Stop
“Don’t Stop” was written by Christine McVie of Fleetwood Mac in response to her separation and subsequent divorce from the band’s bassist, John McVie, and became a song about moving on and finding hope.